The Paradigm Confessional Thread

I forgot to add that Hailey Joel Osement flipped me the bird and I once stepped on Glen Close's foot. There's probobly a lot more, but I'm tired. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

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I'm bisexual

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I sleep naked

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I am to nice at times

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I'm not very happy and I care to much about what other people think about me

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I often cry myself to sleep

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I have a therapists because of my issues

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Originally posted by Tony [quote]Originally posted by Hanyou spoiler (highlight to read): As mentioned earlier I despise nothing more than the mistreatment of women. Many girls hate me for the fact that I’m a bit obsessed with chivalry; but frankly I always feel the need to hold the door open for any female that crosses my path (unless I’m on a date, of course XP).

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Amen, brother! I am the same way. And yes, I have been dissed by girls (some women too) because of it.

Oh, Yeah?

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Despite being a pretty liberated woman, love it when guys are like this. This makes them appealing in the biggest way. So, does this actually make me old-fashioned?

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Quoth angelcakes: spoiler (highlight to read): I talk to my wall. I know you might find that funny...but all my siblings no longer live with me. It get lonely out here all alone...even if my siblings are soul stealing demons. Surprisingly, Walter is very conversational.....

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I never had any siblings, so I spend a good deal of time pacing back and forth in the living room muttering to myself. I usually imagine I'm having a conversation with someone...anyone, frankly. Sometimes I'd rather talk to myself than just give one of my friends a call. The advantage is that that's how I usually come up with ideas for stories and such.

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I like fighting, even though I'm terrible at it and I usually lose (I haven't fought very much though). I like the fact that I usually end up in extreme pain, even if I inflict equal pain on my opponent. It's not that I'm a masochist, just that I view pain as a sort of "rite of passage." If, by the end of the day, I have not felt some sort of physical pain, I almost feel like it was a waste. Too much relaxation and comfort makes me remarkably nervous. I know it's said often, but it certainly applies to me: I would not like to die on a deathbed. I would like to die, preferably, fighting. I'm sure I'm not the only one.

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I like the feeling of being in control of circumstances or even other people. I'm not a control freak, but once I do have control I completely fall in love with it...however, I never use that control against anyone else or in favour of myself. For the most part, I try to use it to do the right thing. But I like control nonetheless.

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Originally posted by angelcakes My confessions are small ones....but here goes nothing Which leads me to... spoiler (highlight to read): I am very unhealthy. I have a weak heart, which causes me me to have an ocassional seizure. That's one of the reasons I missed so much school as a kid. They were so frequent and so...big I just couldn't go to school. I am also in line to have cancer seeing as the oldest of my sister had cancer and in my family it skips a generation. That generation just happened to be me. I also suffer from terrible asthma, which once in a while send me to the hospital. In fact about the time I couldn't log on to PCF, I had a huge attack that send me to the hospital for about 2 days.

My dad came down with polio when he was fifteen, spent a year n the hospital, and after that couldn't walk without crutches or, when he was in particularly good shape, a cane.

He was sort of a tough guy and never talked about how he felt about all this at the time. I assume he was pretty unhappy, don't you? But he never said. In the end he became an aeronautical engineer, got married, had three kids, had innumerable hobbies (many of which, like boat-building, seemed improbable for a guy with two gimpy legs, which I suppose was the point), and was happy.

This, by the way, is pretty much the typical outcome for people who feel miserable in their teens (this is a general comment: I'm not singling out you, Angelcakes, in any way!). Although people's problems are real, a lot of their MISERY comes from being a teen, and that's something you leave behind as you get older! By their mid-twenties, most people wouldn't be fifteen again for any amount of money.

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I love Ricky Martin.

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As anti-preppy and anti-cheerleader as I am..I wouldn't mind going back for one second, I miss matching so cutely and putting a ribbon in my hair. And I miss pumping the crowd before a football game. But for some reason I am completely comfortable being who I am now. And I feel like this is how my friends like me. If I change and go back to who I used to be, they will desert me.

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I really truly care about my boyfriend. and when I'm around him I feel this about 20x stronger. But when I am around another guy that I like, it's as if how I feel about him is nothing. That I would drop him for this other guy. I don't want it that way though, because I know if I lost my bf for him, it would be a very big mistake.

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Originally posted by Tony spoiler (highlight to read): I often fall for unattainable women. I know I can't be with them. So when I am rejected, it doesn't feel as bad.

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Right now, I'm in a situation like that. Here, read this (it contains a fair amount of explatives): Taken from Mooninite Zero's LiveJournal Life, Love and a 15 hour time difference If you picked this post up in a Google search for certain "keywords," I have this to say for you: Good job. You're a f***ing loser. To all of those that came here for other reasons, I salute you. What I'm about to say is something that I just have to blurt out. It won't make any difference (or at least until I see the people from Ardsley again, which'll be pretty soon). Over the past year and a half (approx.), I had the first and only semi-serious relationship with a girl (whose name I won't give out, because, right now, her friends are stalking and spamming me). It ended quite bitterly, but I'm glad it was over with. Let's move on, shall we? During the entire junior and senior years, I had a crush on Eri Ijichi. It was until the middle of the senior year that I found out that she was dating Mike Carrey and then Neil Gershgorn. I knew Mike's brother, Chris, a while ago. Chris was a great kid to me, but was different to others. His brother, on the other hand (from what I learned), had a bad reputation. He graduated a few years before me, and, from what I heard, just hung around Westchester during the years after he graduated high school. I'm not trying to smear his name, by the way. Neil, to me, was always an asshole. He picked on me from the first day I got to ardsley in the 6th grade until the end. I sound like a wining baby, don't I? I should really stop... ...But anyhow, my infatuation with her continued even though I realized the following things: -She does not know I exist -She seems to be a lot more popular than me (yes, children, popularity is still such a thing in high school, but it's hidden) -I'd ruin my name/embarrass my self in front of her friends (like Erica Gould, who, I suspected, thought I was stalking her when I was really going to drum lessons) To make it worse, Eri has supposedly already made her trip to Japan, where she will be attending college. I'm too late. The best chance that I have of talking to her is the 10th year reunion, which I doubt she'll attend. I'm just another love-struck motherf***er that nobody cares about. That, ladies and gentlemen, is the story of Eri Ijichi. I've said almost nothing to her, and I will probably never speak to her again (to my dismay) due to these complications.I feel kind of upset about this. Oh well...

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I lost my faith.

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I feel I have no good qualities.

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I'm scared and confused.

I think I said some of these allready, but I feel the need to say them again.

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Originally posted by whatever spoiler (highlight to read): I have a therapists because of my issues

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I think if I ever get a therapist he would be bored out of his mind.

Though I talk a good game,

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I am still a virgin. I am waiting for Miss Right. In fact, a Miss Wayneright would be nice.

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Originally posted by Tony Though I talk a good game, spoiler (highlight to read): I am still a virgin. I am waiting for Miss Right. In fact, a Miss Wayneright would be nice.

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So am I, and I hope my future husband is.

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Originally posted by Tony Though I talk a good game, spoiler (highlight to read): I am still a virgin. I am waiting for Miss Right. In fact, a Miss Wayneright would be nice.

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I'm going to be a virgin forever. I believe that sex saps you of your natural super powers.

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Originally posted by Wazpy quote: Originally posted by Tony Though I talk a good game, spoiler (highlight to read): I am still a virgin. I am waiting for Miss Right. In fact, a Miss Wayneright would be nice. spoiler (highlight to read): I'm going to be a virgin forever. I believe that sex saps you of your natural super powers.

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It just gives you different ones: pregnancy, childbirth and the opportunity to turn into your parents.

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Originally posted by Pygmalion quote: Originally posted by Wazpy quote: Originally posted by Tony Though I talk a good game, spoiler (highlight to read): I am still a virgin. I am waiting for Miss Right. In fact, a Miss Wayneright would be nice. spoiler (highlight to read): I'm going to be a virgin forever. I believe that sex saps you of your natural super powers. spoiler (highlight to read): It just gives you different ones: pregnancy, childbirth and the opportunity to turn into your parents. Pygmalion

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Those arn't powers. That's the baby virus. Its an STD.

I confess that

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I don't like confessing things in public. I hope no one feels that this thread is somehow pressuring them to do so. It's an "do it if you want to, otherwise don't" sort of thing.

Yay, more!

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I'm completely a hopeless romantic.

And on a completely unrelated note,

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I have a bad feeling that America has been on a downward spiral for the past 25 years or so.

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Originally posted by GAT-X105 Yay, more! spoiler (highlight to read): I'm completely a hopeless romantic. And on a completely unrelated note, spoiler (highlight to read): I have a bad feeling that America has been on a downward spiral for the past 25 years or so.

Me too!