The Paradigm Confessional Thread

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Originally posted by Lyinginbedmon spoiler (highlight to read): I'm a little worried that my darker side is starting to take over, I'm almost constantly thinking about death (But that's nothing new) and how to kill people, often in large numbers. Thankfully, it hasn't spread to my control over my bad temper (Which usually only raises to fisticuffs level once a year ). One of my teachers is thinking about getting me a session with the school counsellor, like that'll do any good. I've already seen a psychiatrist once before, and I haven't really changed much since before then. My biggest fear about it is that Tim (The character I said was my other side a while ago) is the darker portion, because if he takes over then an eternity in the Nine Hells of Baator won't compare to five minutes of my wrath

Although I'm opposed to modern psychology as a whole, it's time for me to contradict myself yet again: seek profesisonal help. There's not a damn thing that an anime message board can do for you in that situation.

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Originally posted by Cerpin Taxt quote: Originally posted by Lyinginbedmon spoiler (highlight to read): I'm a little worried that my darker side is starting to take over, I'm almost constantly thinking about death (But that's nothing new) and how to kill people, often in large numbers. Thankfully, it hasn't spread to my control over my bad temper (Which usually only raises to fisticuffs level once a year ). One of my teachers is thinking about getting me a session with the school counsellor, like that'll do any good. I've already seen a psychiatrist once before, and I haven't really changed much since before then. My biggest fear about it is that Tim (The character I said was my other side a while ago) is the darker portion, because if he takes over then an eternity in the Nine Hells of Baator won't compare to five minutes of my wrath Although I'm opposed to modern psychology as a whole, it's time for me to contradict myself yet again: seek profesisonal help. There's not a damn thing that an anime message board can do for you in that situation.

Agreed Cerpin. In the 8th grade one of my teachers thought I was psychotic...but can I help it if I think historical deaths and blunders are funny? Hell no. Anyway, you gotta work on blending tim with your nicer side. I use to(and still am sometimes) a maniac who thinks only about how to cause as much pain as possible. My darker side has always been opressed, because I once believed that you should only do good and whatnot. Then I hit 14 and I slowly started mixing the Id and the Superego together. Your not to try and eliminate your darkness. You are to try to understand that darkness is what makes you such a damn good writer, the primal drive. Try to simply accept it.

Ex: Some inferior model(the moron brutes) pisses you off and is ready to fight. You know what you do? Assuming there is some sort of back up(teacher, buddies, etc.) do nothing. Nothing. Not one bit. Do not respond. Do not fight back. Use your mind power to remain absolutely nothing. Do not feed the troll, starve it. If all else fails, block and try not to throw any lethal blows.

Edit:This is not and should not be a canonical solution to all problems. Seek help either way.

Edit:Since I'm not in the mood to post again....

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I'm really losing focus now. I have trouble remembering stuff. my mind just seems to blank out sometimes.

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Originally posted by Avenir quote: Originally posted by BabyGhia spoiler (highlight to read): I'm noticing that I'm slowly falling back into the soda trap. I'm still drinking a bit of water. My house is still a no soda zone... except for 7eleven... but the current place I am working has Cokes in the frig. Evil! spoiler (highlight to read): I've caught myself doing likewise, Rayna. Prior to Wednesday, I hadn't had a sip of soda in nearly two weeks and had been quenching thirsts on water, juice, and tea. But my father just had to buy a twelve pack container of Coke on his recent outing to the market; we also received a two liter bottle the other night with some pizza we ordered. I've had over ten cans worth in the past fourty eight hours. They're finally gone, however.

I hadn't had it in practically a month. Then I went to a fast food place while shopping with a friend and got a coke. I kinda feel guilty about it now.

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Originally posted by Fujiko quote: Originally posted by Avenir quote: Originally posted by BabyGhia spoiler (highlight to read): I'm noticing that I'm slowly falling back into the soda trap. I'm still drinking a bit of water. My house is still a no soda zone... except for 7eleven... but the current place I am working has Cokes in the frig. Evil! spoiler (highlight to read): I've caught myself doing likewise, Rayna. Prior to Wednesday, I hadn't had a sip of soda in nearly two weeks and had been quenching thirsts on water, juice, and tea. But my father just had to buy a twelve pack container of Coke on his recent outing to the market; we also received a two liter bottle the other night with some pizza we ordered. I've had over ten cans worth in the past fourty eight hours. They're finally gone, however. I hadn't had it in practically a month. Then I went to a fast food place while shopping with a friend and got a coke. I kinda feel guilty about it now.

I've had about 4 cans of soda my entire life. I detest it! Water, Juice, Tea, Coffee, and Hot Chocolate are what I usually drink.

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Originally posted by Cerpin Taxt quote: Originally posted by Fujiko quote: Originally posted by Avenir quote: Originally posted by BabyGhia spoiler (highlight to read): I'm noticing that I'm slowly falling back into the soda trap. I'm still drinking a bit of water. My house is still a no soda zone... except for 7eleven... but the current place I am working has Cokes in the frig. Evil! spoiler (highlight to read): I've caught myself doing likewise, Rayna. Prior to Wednesday, I hadn't had a sip of soda in nearly two weeks and had been quenching thirsts on water, juice, and tea. But my father just had to buy a twelve pack container of Coke on his recent outing to the market; we also received a two liter bottle the other night with some pizza we ordered. I've had over ten cans worth in the past fourty eight hours. They're finally gone, however. I hadn't had it in practically a month. Then I went to a fast food place while shopping with a friend and got a coke. I kinda feel guilty about it now. I've had about 4 cans of soda my entire life. I detest it! Water, Juice, Tea, Coffee, and Hot Chocolate are what I usually drink.

Yeah, i'm not big on it either, usually i drink it i'm at a party or something like that...i usually drink water or milk. If i need something sweet, juice helps me keep cravings down.

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Originally posted by Fujiko quote: Originally posted by Cerpin Taxt quote: Originally posted by Fujiko quote: Originally posted by Avenir quote: Originally posted by BabyGhia spoiler (highlight to read): I'm noticing that I'm slowly falling back into the soda trap. I'm still drinking a bit of water. My house is still a no soda zone... except for 7eleven... but the current place I am working has Cokes in the frig. Evil! spoiler (highlight to read): I've caught myself doing likewise, Rayna. Prior to Wednesday, I hadn't had a sip of soda in nearly two weeks and had been quenching thirsts on water, juice, and tea. But my father just had to buy a twelve pack container of Coke on his recent outing to the market; we also received a two liter bottle the other night with some pizza we ordered. I've had over ten cans worth in the past fourty eight hours. They're finally gone, however. I hadn't had it in practically a month. Then I went to a fast food place while shopping with a friend and got a coke. I kinda feel guilty about it now. I've had about 4 cans of soda my entire life. I detest it! Water, Juice, Tea, Coffee, and Hot Chocolate are what I usually drink. Yeah, i'm not big on it either, usually i drink it i'm at a party or something like that...i usually drink water or milk. If i need something sweet, juice helps me keep cravings down.

I've been pop-free for years and never missed it. I like tea and water. I simply don't understand people's attachment to that sugar water. Of course, I'm a super-abstainer-- never drank, never smoke, never taken drugs, don't drink pop, and keep caffeine to a minimum -- if it weren't for the caffiene in chocolate, I probably would probably have eliminated it altogether. (I drink decaf teas.) There's only one exception to my repitore of ultrasquareness, but that's for you to learn when you're older.

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Originally posted by TanookiJoe quote: Originally posted by Fujiko quote: Originally posted by Cerpin Taxt quote: Originally posted by Fujiko quote: Originally posted by Avenir [quote]Originally posted by BabyGhia spoiler (highlight to read): I'm noticing that I'm slowly falling back into the soda trap. I'm still drinking a bit of water. My house is still a no soda zone... except for 7eleven... but the current place I am working has Cokes in the frig. Evil! spoiler (highlight to read): I've caught myself doing likewise, Rayna. Prior to Wednesday, I hadn't had a sip of soda in nearly two weeks and had been quenching thirsts on water, juice, and tea. But my father just had to buy a twelve pack container of Coke on his recent outing to the market; we also received a two liter bottle the other night with some pizza we ordered. I've had over ten cans worth in the past fourty eight hours. They're finally gone, however. I hadn't had it in practically a month. Then I went to a fast food place while shopping with a friend and got a coke. I kinda feel guilty about it now. I've had about 4 cans of soda my entire life. I detest it! Water, Juice, Tea, Coffee, and Hot Chocolate are what I usually drink. Yeah, i'm not big on it either, usually i drink it i'm at a party or something like that...i usually drink water or milk. If i need something sweet, juice helps me keep cravings down.

I've been pop-free for years and never missed it. I like tea and water. I simply don't understand people's attachment to that sugar water. Of course, I'm a super-abstainer-- never drank, never smoke, never taken drugs, don't drink pop, and keep caffeine to a minimum -- if it weren't for the caffiene in chocolate, I probably would probably have eliminated it altogether. (I drink decaf teas.) There's only one exception to my repitore of ultrasquareness, but that's for you to learn when you're older. [/quote]

yeah, i'm on and off on soda. i sometimes get it, when i see it, i drink it. other than that, i get juice.

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To disclaim, the follwing statement is neither relevant to nor aimed at anyone on PCF or anyone else in particular. However, I've been witnessing a relative of mine go through a similar phase. People who live in strong self denial seriously peeve me. If I overhear someone blab "Oh, I'm so stupid! My life sucks!," I'll insinuate that I want them to shut up and then comment to stop wasting life complaining and attempt to remedy the "stupidity" they bemoan about.

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I've had a problem with sleeping on odd hours for quite a long time. I tend to remain awake until five in the morning on the verge of daybreak on occasion before I finally retire and slumber until eleven or noon; a benefit of homeschooling, so to speak, but it's evolving into a hassle. I also suffer from sleep deprivation. I'm going to try some advice A Clockwork Tomato suggested to BethMcBeth in the Advice Thread that may remedy my sleep schedule; we'll see how that concludes.

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quote: Originally posted by Captain Maw quote: Originally posted by TanookiJoe quote: Originally posted by Fujiko quote: Originally posted by Cerpin Taxt [quote]Originally posted by Fujiko [quote]Originally posted by Avenir [quote]Originally posted by BabyGhia spoiler (highlight to read): I'm noticing that I'm slowly falling back into the soda trap. I'm still drinking a bit of water. My house is still a no soda zone... except for 7eleven... but the current place I am working has Cokes in the frig. Evil! spoiler (highlight to read): I've caught myself doing likewise, Rayna. Prior to Wednesday, I hadn't had a sip of soda in nearly two weeks and had been quenching thirsts on water, juice, and tea. But my father just had to buy a twelve pack container of Coke on his recent outing to the market; we also received a two liter bottle the other night with some pizza we ordered. I've had over ten cans worth in the past fourty eight hours. They're finally gone, however. I hadn't had it in practically a month. Then I went to a fast food place while shopping with a friend and got a coke. I kinda feel guilty about it now. I've had about 4 cans of soda my entire life. I detest it! Water, Juice, Tea, Coffee, and Hot Chocolate are what I usually drink. Yeah, i'm not big on it either, usually i drink it i'm at a party or something like that...i usually drink water or milk. If i need something sweet, juice helps me keep cravings down.

Ok, guys, could we please not have the side chatter like the above about the confessions? If I see one more conversation like this I will lock the thread for a period of time.

Also, please, if you're confessions are health issues, please seek professional help. We like you a lot.

You MIGHT see a confession from the ever secret Pen1300...

Later,
Pen1300

Ok. Heres my confession.

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I've had a strong urge to act. Why I have no idea. anyone in IRC knows that I've been having the impulse to go out and be in a play, but since I dont get theatre arts till next year..I have to wait. I am a horrible public speaker...yet when I speak as someone else that goes away. Any thoughts?

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Originally posted by BigOZ Ok. Heres my confession. spoiler (highlight to read): I've had a strong urge to act. Why I have no idea. anyone in IRC knows that I've been having the impulse to go out and be in a play, but since I dont get theatre arts till next year..I have to wait. I am a horrible public speaker...yet when I speak as someone else that goes away. Any thoughts?

First chance you get...Go for it!

think...

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Thinks half the world crazy or on drugs! dont think i am crazy! knock on wood!

Then I suppose you've just had everyone who reads this catch you

maybe the last one is invisible. man... if somebody spotted that, i'd get worried.... or just he/she could have a good eye.

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I have an extreme distrust for the entire human race. Now that may sound extreme, but it's true. I don't trust anyone and have insane paranoia problems. Especially when it comes to my boyfriend. For some reason or another, I cannot allow myself to trust him at all. I can't shake the feeling he's lying to me. I've tried to talk to him about it, but nothing he seems to say seems like something I believe.

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I depress very easily. More now than as of before. No clue what's causing it...probably the fact I can't trust my boyfriend. I think I need help -__-

On a lighter note...

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It seems that I've become a shopaholic. That's always fun ^__^

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Originally posted by angelcakes spoiler (highlight to read): It seems that I've become a shopaholic. That's always fun ^__^

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As have I; it is very enjoyable. Though unfortunately, shopping with my parents can be quite an irksome experience.

That's my confession for now.

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I loved my credit card so much to the point that I had to cut it up. It was a sad day indeed.

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I'm addicted to Katamari Damacy. I can't stop hearing the theme song in my head!

Latah
Token

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Originally posted by Token Kittie spoiler (highlight to read): I'm addicted to Katamari Damacy. I can't stop hearing the theme song in my head! Latah Token

It's an amazing game. Can't wait till the sequel!

As for me....

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I am WAY too stressed out with school, moving, and love.

I'll be vauge with that for the time being...