The Paradigm Confessional Thread

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Originally posted by CablesInside yeah, but back to the original thread topic

I have Aspergers as well; I was diagnosed when I was six. No shame in that.

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I confess that I personally belive that eating is overrated. While I enjoy sampling and dining on new and exotic foods, I find doing so to be a hassle. Usually when I feel slightly hungry or famished, I get perturbed with having to stop what I'm doing to get something to eat. I also don't like to eat breakfast because my stomach tends to cramp up when I eat immediately after I wake up in the morning; my mom believes it is right to do so despite my refusals because she claims to have read someplace that people with my psychological conditions "cannot tell" when they are hungry.

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Originally posted by Avenir spoiler (highlight to read): I confess that I personally belive that eating is overrated. While I enjoy sampling and dining on new and exotic foods, I find doing so to be a hassle. Usually when I feel slightly hungry or famished, I get perturbed with having to stop what I'm doing to get something to eat. I also don't like to eat breakfast because my stomach tends to cramp up when I eat immediately after I wake up in the morning; my mom believes it is right to do so despite my refusals because she claims to have read someplace that people with my psychological conditions "cannot tell" when they are hungry.

Eating overrated?! HOW CAN YOU SAY THAT?! WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU!Oh yeah...Maybe you got something bad going on in your stomach if it cramps up.


Also...as I have probably said before...I more than likely also have Aspergers. I seem to fit the bill. But its alright, its ok, it benifits more than it harms me anyway!

This is absolutely horrible, so read at your own risk.

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For now, I have nothing to confess.

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Originally posted by CablesInside yeah, but back to the original thread topic spoiler (highlight to read): for the past six months, i have worked third shift one night a week, and taken a 30-minute break every night without properly clocking out

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I've done that. I worked the third shift for a few years and was in the buiding by myself. I'm not sure there is enough compensation in the world for having to do that sort of turn around. As long as the work gets done

Now, something from me...

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I've become really withdrawn lately and haven't had much interest in what's going on around me. I'm falling back onto old habits

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Originally posted by Madrona spoiler (highlight to read): I've become really withdrawn lately and haven't had much interest in what's going on around me. I'm falling back onto old habits

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Me too, Kath. Me too. I don't think it has anything to do with the recent personal life developements... Maybe it's all the constant bickering? Occasional is ok and expected, but when it seems like every other day brings a new problem, it just kinda turns me off... ::shrugs:: Oh well. I'm still here.

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Originally posted by Avenir spoiler (highlight to read): I confess that I personally belive that eating is overrated. While I enjoy sampling and dining on new and exotic foods, I find doing so to be a hassle. Usually when I feel slightly hungry or famished, I get perturbed with having to stop what I'm doing to get something to eat. I also don't like to eat breakfast because my stomach tends to cramp up when I eat immediately after I wake up in the morning; my mom believes it is right to do so despite my refusals because she claims to have read someplace that people with my psychological conditions "cannot tell" when they are hungry.

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I feel like starving yourself/dieting with get-skinny-quick methods is overrated. But that's just me.

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Originally posted by COHugh quote: Originally posted by Madrona spoiler (highlight to read): I've become really withdrawn lately and haven't had much interest in what's going on around me. I'm falling back onto old habits spoiler (highlight to read): Me too, Kath. Me too. I don't think it has anything to do with the recent personal life developements... Maybe it's all the constant bickering? Occasional is ok and expected, but when it seems like every other day brings a new problem, it just kinda turns me off... ::shrugs:: Oh well. I'm still here.

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Considering I've been involved in much of the recent bickering, it's only causing me to take that remark personally, but not negatively. I'm sorry, Dave. I was wondering why you've been so distant lately. We miss you, man.

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Originally posted by Fujiko quote: Originally posted by Avenir spoiler (highlight to read): I confess that I personally belive that eating is overrated. While I enjoy sampling and dining on new and exotic foods, I find doing so to be a hassle. Usually when I feel slightly hungry or famished, I get perturbed with having to stop what I'm doing to get something to eat. I also don't like to eat breakfast because my stomach tends to cramp up when I eat immediately after I wake up in the morning; my mom believes it is right to do so despite my refusals because she claims to have read someplace that people with my psychological conditions "cannot tell" when they are hungry. spoiler (highlight to read): I feel like starving yourself/dieting with get-skinny-quick methods is overrated. But that's just me.

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It's not precisely a question of starving myself for dietary purposes, I just do not like to eat. I have a very high metabolism and when I do eat, I eat a lot.

On a relevant note...

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I find dieting to be overrated, period.

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Originally posted by Avenir quote: Originally posted by Fujiko quote: Originally posted by Avenir spoiler (highlight to read): I confess that I personally belive that eating is overrated. While I enjoy sampling and dining on new and exotic foods, I find doing so to be a hassle. Usually when I feel slightly hungry or famished, I get perturbed with having to stop what I'm doing to get something to eat. I also don't like to eat breakfast because my stomach tends to cramp up when I eat immediately after I wake up in the morning; my mom believes it is right to do so despite my refusals because she claims to have read someplace that people with my psychological conditions "cannot tell" when they are hungry. spoiler (highlight to read): I feel like starving yourself/dieting with get-skinny-quick methods is overrated. But that's just me. spoiler (highlight to read): It's not precisely a question of starving myself for dietary purposes, I just do not like to eat. I have a very high metabolism and when I do eat, I eat a lot.

Oh i know. I wasn't implying you starving yourself specifically or anything of the sort. I was just throwing my two cents in, since we were on a somewhat related subject.

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Originally posted by Fujiko quote: Originally posted by Avenir quote: Originally posted by Fujiko quote: Originally posted by Avenir spoiler (highlight to read): I confess that I personally belive that eating is overrated. While I enjoy sampling and dining on new and exotic foods, I find doing so to be a hassle. Usually when I feel slightly hungry or famished, I get perturbed with having to stop what I'm doing to get something to eat. I also don't like to eat breakfast because my stomach tends to cramp up when I eat immediately after I wake up in the morning; my mom believes it is right to do so despite my refusals because she claims to have read someplace that people with my psychological conditions "cannot tell" when they are hungry. spoiler (highlight to read): I feel like starving yourself/dieting with get-skinny-quick methods is overrated. But that's just me. spoiler (highlight to read): It's not precisely a question of starving myself for dietary purposes, I just do not like to eat. I have a very high metabolism and when I do eat, I eat a lot. Oh i know. I wasn't implying you starving yourself specifically or anything of the sort. I was just throwing my two cents in, since we were on a somewhat related subject.

Ah, I see.

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I've got the procrastination blues at the moment when it comes to this Japanese homework, which is due tomorrow.

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Originally posted by Avenir spoiler (highlight to read): Considering I've been involved in much of the recent bickering, it's only causing me to take that remark personally, but not negatively. I'm sorry, Dave.

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Just because you're one of many targets doesn't mean you're the cause. No worries, sir!

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Originally posted by Madrona spoiler (highlight to read): I've become really withdrawn lately and haven't had much interest in what's going on around me. I'm falling back onto old habits

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Usually this is when I start being a bug and getting you to talk to me. You know that I'm here for you and I have noticed a little bit of that going on. But, you know, at least you know it's going on.

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Maybe, I could say the same about myself very recently. I was very quiet about all of my most recent lack of job and finance stuff. Talking about it was rather depressing and hard on me. I'm still in it, trying to be realistic, but it's hard. I have some freelance work and it looks like I have another month of it, but it's nothing permanent.

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I've been trying to get use to my new work schedule. Basically I've gone from a 1-10 sleep cycle to a 10-7. Been quite an adjustment so my energy level hasn't caught up with me yet. I come home exhausted and the last thing I want to do is hop on the computer.

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I'm noticing that I'm slowly falling back into the soda trap. I'm still drinking a bit of water. My house is still a no soda zone... except for 7eleven... but the current place I am working has Cokes in the frig. Evil!

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Originally posted by BabyGhia spoiler (highlight to read): I'm noticing that I'm slowly falling back into the soda trap. I'm still drinking a bit of water. My house is still a no soda zone... except for 7eleven... but the current place I am working has Cokes in the frig. Evil!

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I've caught myself doing likewise, Rayna. Prior to Wednesday, I hadn't had a sip of soda in nearly two weeks and had been quenching thirsts on water, juice, and tea. But my father just had to buy a twelve pack container of Coke on his recent outing to the market; we also received a two liter bottle the other night with some pizza we ordered. I've had over ten cans worth in the past fourty eight hours. They're finally gone, however.

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I've noticed lately that I'm beginning to lose weight. I've gone from a little over 200 pounds to slightly above or below 190 and my waistline and love handles have started to dwindle in size. Unfortunately, my love handles have begun to enlarge again since I stopped using a particular machine at the gym because I have reason to believe it was putting me at risk for a hernia due to a strange lump suddenly appearing in my lower abdomen.

Catch twenty two then:

lose weight & have hernia

Or

miss hernia and gain weight!

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Originally posted by Lyinginbedmon Catch twenty two then: lose weight & have hernia Or miss hernia and gain weight!

Actually, I couldn't care less about losing weight as I work out for bodybuilding. The lump isn't painful to the touch, but it's very, very peculiar. According to my parents and their examinations, until I can see an actual physician, it's not a hernia, but I don't intend to keep their word on it.

I suppose that counts as a pseudo-confession. I don't have anything to admit at the moment.

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Originally posted by CablesInside spoiler (highlight to read): witnessing any kind of affection, or even a lack of it has way too negative of an effect on me, the sweet couples remind me how great i am at that kind of thing, and how i have no opportunity to exercise that, the bad couples make me think of how i would fix things in that instance. agh, nevermind, i'm unable to articulate what is bothering me now, i jsut need someone here, and this house is way too empty, and isolated for someone as prone to depression as me. it's really annoying, because i had been doing so well for this last month. i'll tryu to have a good conversation with someone tomorrow, and make myself feel better, but for now, you all have to ignore my whining

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I can resolutely sympathize. Witnessing affinity in someone else's relationship tends to dispirit me as I realize I'm a nice guy and have the potency to exert such, but I have many difficulties around women. I, too, tend to anatomize frailties in relationships on blame of the boyfriend and elaborate how I could "do better" when, in actuality, such matters are none of my business. There is an old adage that says love conquers all, and it will do so to us eventually, my friend. You need to keep your thoughts positive and keep yourself available. Remember, there are plenty of fish in the sea. I'm sorry to hear of these disheartened times you are experiencing. There is many a myriad of people to converse with here, myself included. Please don't hesitate to drop me a private or instant message.

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I still seldomly suck my thumb.

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I'm a little worried that my darker side is starting to take over, I'm almost constantly thinking about death (But that's nothing new) and how to kill people, often in large numbers. Thankfully, it hasn't spread to my control over my bad temper (Which usually only raises to fisticuffs level once a year ). One of my teachers is thinking about getting me a session with the school counsellor, like that'll do any good. I've already seen a psychiatrist once before, and I haven't really changed much since before then. My biggest fear about it is that Tim (The character I said was my other side a while ago) is the darker portion, because if he takes over then an eternity in the Nine Hells of Baator won't compare to five minutes of my wrath

(See page 50 for reference)