The Paradigm Confessional Thread | Paradigm City Forums

ebie	09-22-2004 07:49 PM

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I'm anorexic.

Travis Bickle

09-22-2004 07:55 PM

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Originally posted by Kittie Gurl Ebie

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I'm anorexic.

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Sorry to hear that. My sister is, too, and she's dealing with it as we speak.

COHugh

09-23-2004 07:51 AM

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I... Hate... Group work.

BethMcBeth

09-23-2004 08:08 AM

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Originally posted by COHugh

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I... Hate... Group work.

Oh yes I so agree!! Blahh!! ^_~"

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I also hate reading out loud to others, I feel like I sound weird and mess up what I am readinbg alot

M.S. Feather

09-23-2004 09:41 AM

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I just wanted to thank you guys for your advice and kind words.
And just to let you know I did go see him the other day. Me and my Grandmother (my Dad’s mom) went by to see him. He’s doing OK. He’s a little scared but all-in-all he’s taking it pretty well. He’s always lived life one day at a time and he doesn’t care for dwelling on the future much. He said I shouldn’t either. What’s the point of getting upset over something that hasn’t happened yet? Let’s make the best of the time we do have together.
I suppose he’s right. But I still can’t help but feel a little down. Just the thought of him not being there anymore makes me ill. I’m just going to have to try and make the best of things. And I must admit I do feel a little bit better now that I’ve talked to him.
Hopefully we will enjoy the time we have left together. And hopefully it will be a long time. ^_^

COHugh

09-23-2004 10:20 AM

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Good! I'm glad you were able to see him/be relieved of some of the pressure/tension/etc. Feel free to vent here if you need to. Smile

BabyGhia

09-23-2004 04:25 PM

*sigh*

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It's better to talk about things than to let them fester. Things should not be left unsaid. Talk them out with the person you have the issue with.

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I like to make my own judgments about people. Listen to my gut. Look at their actions. Look at how they treat others. Look at how they treat me. And then make my decision about what type of person they are. You can only learn so much from what others think.

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I'll say it again... I have trust issues. I haven't trusted a lot of people in my life. So the people who I do trust have had to prove to me that they are worthy of my trust.

Tony Waynewrong

09-23-2004 11:12 PM

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Until recently, I thought I wasn't going to fall for anyone and have them return the feeling. I mean, I had some people like me, but never with the intensity that I feel. I know this isn't the crush thread, so I will just say that I am a new believer in the concept of love. She knows who I am talking about.

Beth is my angel in an orange vest. She has released the passion that was bottled up in me. I have never met a person who I can love with that much intensity. I am lucky to be hers.

Spooky

09-23-2004 11:17 PM

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Two nights ago I had a dream about GK. Let's just say there was guy with green hair, a party, and a severed arm involved Wink

Latah

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Sharpshooter005

09-23-2004 11:37 PM

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Originally posted by Token Girl

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Two nights ago I had a dream about GK. Let's just say there was guy with green hair, a party, and a severed arm involved Wink

Latah

Token

Your dream reminds me of Beowulf.

I'm assuming the "g" in "GK" dosen't stand for grendal. Since..you know, he hasn't snuck into any bars and lain waste to scandinavians. Well..probably not.

COHugh

09-24-2004 12:01 AM

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I still don't believe in the concept of human love, to be honest. I have a very idealistic view of love that I think can never be attained by any living being.

Every girl, and I'm sorry but I do mean "girl" - there's a maturity difference there that I just have not found in ANY of my peers, that I've ever "dated" has betrayed me in some form or fashion (one had the decency to break up with me before going out with the guy, the one I didn't really want to be with engaged in some inappropriate touching with another guy (which didn't upset me too much, but it still disgusted me somewhat), the other flat out cheated on me).

I have major trust issues as well, but I don't think that has anything to do with actually finding someone I'm interested in who's interested in me. Those factors would come into play once a relationship was already established.

I unfortunately have not found this yet and probably never will. There are times that this upsets me greatly (especially just recently)... I am a human being, after all, but I have something that keeps me strong when I'm feeling weak (thankfully). You can probably figure that out if you read between the lines. Wink

BethMcBeth

09-24-2004 12:06 AM

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...for a long time...a very long time.. I had been asking many questions about myself, who I was, why am I me, my very existance...I...was ...all alone. I know, I hide it, I can hide it very well but my past and my life was eating away at my very self.. bit by bit...more and more everyday. But, suddenly I ...I... started to talk with Tony...and bit by bit he started to put back the pieces slowly...and at my pace that I needed.. He has opened my eyes to the world that I live in...to this ownderful world. I can't believe that I had even thought of throwing it away before..I feel so ashamed.. But he has shown me what love is and so much more, I know like he said this is not a crush thread, but I just want to thank him for this and so much more. For the first time ever in my life I feel as if I can make sense... God Bless you my love.

COHugh

09-24-2004 12:24 AM

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Congrats.

Fujiko

09-24-2004 12:29 AM

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Ahh, love in the PC forums... Pleased

makes me so happy when people find each other

Mike	09-24-2004 09:24 PM

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I've been looking it up and I REALLY think I have that social anxiety disorder...I'm going to try and get my mom to set up a doctor's appointment about it.

Asirt

09-24-2004 09:40 PM

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Another confession I will make today. Currently, it's pretty hard for me to find the one person who will love me. I heard all this talk about how easy it is, but it's not for me. For years, I've been trying to find out why it's so difficult. Ah, well no big deal. As long as I remain true to who I am, that is the only thing that matters right now...

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Later,
Trisa

Mike	09-24-2004 09:41 PM

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Originally posted by Trisa

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Another confession I will make today. Currently, it's pretty hard for me to find the one person who will love me. I heard all this talk about how easy it is, but it's not for me. For years, I've been trying to find out why it's so difficult. Ah, well no big deal. As long as I remain true to who I am, that is the only that matters right now...

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Later,
Trisa

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I know exactly how you feel. Hell, I can't even find someone who likes me.

Fujiko

09-25-2004 12:25 AM

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Originally posted by Trisa

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Another confession I will make today. Currently, it's pretty hard for me to find the one person who will love me. I heard all this talk about how easy it is, but it's not for me. For years, I've been trying to find out why it's so difficult. Ah, well no big deal. As long as I remain true to who I am, that is the only thing that matters right now...

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Later,
Trisa

I love your attitude Trisa! I like that you have a positive view on this love business. It's not easy, no matter what they tell you. Yes being true to yourself matters, b/c someone will love you for that. You too GAT. Pleased

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I know exactly how you feel. Hell, I can't even find someone who likes me.

C'mon, if the amp can go up to 11, then you can find someone too

i guess i should make a confession now:

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I'm wearing my last pair of jeans today. haven't had much time to wash clothes.

yeah nuthin special Cool

Jeff	09-25-2004 01:56 AM

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Originally posted by GAT-X105

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I've been looking it up and I REALLY think I have that social anxiety disorder...I'm going to try and get my mom to set up a doctor's appointment about it.

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I definately have that. I even have problems talking online...I get nervous and can't think of anything to say, then I start panicking. X_x

¡SpoonySthingyy!

09-25-2004 10:13 AM

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One of the reasons I have such problems with people is an example of what just happened. People have a problem with me for a reason that they know and I don't. It makes me insecure and I tend to shy away from being outgoing more and more. I always start to think it has something to do with looks. I know, that can't possibly be it, but as a natural reaction that's my first logic.