| LillyRose | 12-20-2004 12:45 AM |
I wrote this ages ago, but just now realized how well it went with my previous post. So here it is in all it's roughness.
Missing
(A Companion Piece to Tea and Sympathy)
by Lilly Rose
Something was missing.
Exactly what that something was, he couldn't say. Not knowing didn't stop him from feeling its' absence. Like a dull ache in the back of his head, it was a pain that wouldn't go away. It made him angry, it annoyed him, and most of all it made him restless. He paced back and forth across the room several times before settling down at the piano. Banging away on the noisy instrument always made him feel better.
He raised his hands over the keys, then stopped. There it was again, as strong as before: the feeling that he should remember what was missing. That what was missing was an important memory he shouldn't let go of without a fight.
He slammed shut the lid with more force than necessary. He frowned at his own reflection in the high sheen of the polished piano. Memories? There were literally hundreds of people in this city trying to find their elusive collective past. He'd never considered himself one of those people. The past was the past, lost and irreparable even if it were found. The future could take care of itself. He lived, by choice, in the ever present Now.
At least he thought so until breakfast that morning. He sat at the table, still half asleep as he ate. That was when a sudden idea came to him, as if it had always been there waiting for him to find it.
He had the strangest feeling that the seat across from his shouldn't be empty.
A memory? Him?
He tried to go about his business and ignore it. Yet try as he might, the would be memory dogged his footsteps. A room down the hall from his made him think it would look better occupied. As it stood now, the empty room held an air of...incompletion?
His study seemed too dusty. On his neatly ordered desk, the hourglasses shone too new and unused. He almost thought one of the older hourglasses shouldn't be there.
He almost thought he remembered it in pieces....but there it sat whole.
The passenger seat of his beloved car evoked the same response as the empty chair at his table. He quickly gave up the idea of trying to outdrive his strange mood.
He had a favorite spot overlooking what remained of the city. He went there to think, to clear his head, and at times to brood. It was a lonely place, and he preferred it that way. He'd never brought another soul to share this space. So why did he bring the almost memory there? If he closed his eyes, he could almost feel another presence there with him. One that was always contemplative, sometimes talkative, usually silent yet eloquent in its' silence.
It was there, standing under the gray skies alone, that the almost memory and the emotions it evoked within him became too much. Like the coward he never imagined he could be, he retreated back inside to try and forget again. Which lead him back to his current defeated position, frowning at himself in the distorted reflection. Confused and wondering when he had lost something that was obviously more important than his peaceful life itself.
"What is it?" he demanded of empty air. "What is it I can't find?"
No one answered him- save for his butler, he lived alone.
-fin
Missing
(A Companion Piece to Tea and Sympathy)
by Lilly Rose
Something was missing.
Exactly what that something was, he couldn't say. Not knowing didn't stop him from feeling its' absence. Like a dull ache in the back of his head, it was a pain that wouldn't go away. It made him angry, it annoyed him, and most of all it made him restless. He paced back and forth across the room several times before settling down at the piano. Banging away on the noisy instrument always made him feel better.
He raised his hands over the keys, then stopped. There it was again, as strong as before: the feeling that he should remember what was missing. That what was missing was an important memory he shouldn't let go of without a fight.
He slammed shut the lid with more force than necessary. He frowned at his own reflection in the high sheen of the polished piano. Memories? There were literally hundreds of people in this city trying to find their elusive collective past. He'd never considered himself one of those people. The past was the past, lost and irreparable even if it were found. The future could take care of itself. He lived, by choice, in the ever present Now.
At least he thought so until breakfast that morning. He sat at the table, still half asleep as he ate. That was when a sudden idea came to him, as if it had always been there waiting for him to find it.
He had the strangest feeling that the seat across from his shouldn't be empty.
A memory? Him?
He tried to go about his business and ignore it. Yet try as he might, the would be memory dogged his footsteps. A room down the hall from his made him think it would look better occupied. As it stood now, the empty room held an air of...incompletion?
His study seemed too dusty. On his neatly ordered desk, the hourglasses shone too new and unused. He almost thought one of the older hourglasses shouldn't be there.
He almost thought he remembered it in pieces....but there it sat whole.
The passenger seat of his beloved car evoked the same response as the empty chair at his table. He quickly gave up the idea of trying to outdrive his strange mood.
He had a favorite spot overlooking what remained of the city. He went there to think, to clear his head, and at times to brood. It was a lonely place, and he preferred it that way. He'd never brought another soul to share this space. So why did he bring the almost memory there? If he closed his eyes, he could almost feel another presence there with him. One that was always contemplative, sometimes talkative, usually silent yet eloquent in its' silence.
It was there, standing under the gray skies alone, that the almost memory and the emotions it evoked within him became too much. Like the coward he never imagined he could be, he retreated back inside to try and forget again. Which lead him back to his current defeated position, frowning at himself in the distorted reflection. Confused and wondering when he had lost something that was obviously more important than his peaceful life itself.
"What is it?" he demanded of empty air. "What is it I can't find?"
No one answered him- save for his butler, he lived alone.
-fin
Ditto. Your first attempt at fan fics is quite cool. A 9.98 out of 10.